I irrationally hate my job and want to leave.
I think I've always felt this way but I've side stepped around the company (change is as good as a rest and all that) which has kept the itchy feet at bay until the last 6 months or so.
Things are much worse since DP found a new job which comes with a big pay rise. I'm insanely jealous.
DP thinks my job is fantastic and says I'm crazy to want to leave. But it's in the public sector. We're working harder and harder because of the government cuts and there's not enough of us now to do our jobs properly. It is now expected for us to do overtime just to keep on top of things. Yes, the extra money is nice, but I object to feeling obliged to give up my spare time just because I'm having money waved at me! Aren't I entitled to a quality of life?! I feel tired, stressed and down all of the time. I want to do something with less responsibility, where I don't lie awake at night worrying about my workload.
My job comes with a decent salary, which is as much as I could ever hope to earn as I'm not qualified to do anything else. I never went to uni, which I deeply regret. There is a small part of me that still enjoys parts of my work, but I've lost all enthusiasm for it and can't seem to shake this feeling off, it's on my mind all of the time. I've tried exploring other career options where I can easily transfer my skills but tbh the other options are equally depressing.
I should probably be thankful for what I have. I own my own flat, have just got engaged, and we're trying for our first child. But this is where the problem lies. We're saving for a house so that we have space for a family. We need my salary in order to do that. DP spent ages looking for his new job to improve our situation as he was previously on low pay. If I leave my job for something else we will potentially be back to square one. Plus I wouldn't be entitled to maternity pay at a new job for god knows how long. But I'm 35 and can't put ttc on hold. I'd love to study for a degree to improve my situation, but I won't be able to afford to with a new house and hopefully a baby.
Aibu? Or does everyone feel this way in this day & age? Do I just suck it up and carry on?!
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
AIBU?
To feel trapped and helpless?
2 replies
5poundsofLazy · 07/08/2015 11:20
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.