So although I do put my all into the classroom, I am never good enough. I am not great at observed lessons and nowadays it really has to be a good or outstanding grade. Its not just the school as I have felt this way for a while. Actually love the classroom side but find all the other aspects of the job soul destroying. I am a voluntary community first responder so I am trained in basic life support and am sent to local 999 calls (within my area and training) to defibrillate etc until the ambulance arrives. I have also done a shift on an ambulance so this decision comes is based on the reality of what could be my new role. However my husband is in a similar role so works shifts making childcare difficult. My kids are 9 and 11 so I might well need to wait a few years. Then there is school holidays to consider and loosing weekends. Of course I would work longer days but less days a week. AIBU?