Had a few threads on here recently, feeling a bit demented and fed up now
I was at court a fortnight ago, and felt the weekend contact I get with DS wasn't split fairly. (I get DS one weekend out of 4 plus a sunday) so had went in hoping to negotiate. The offer I wanted to put on the table was to swap one Saturday a month in return for every single tuesday. Exp would collect DS from morning preschool and have him til 6pm. So 6rs a week, an extra 24hrs over the month
we discussed it all and he said yes, but then refused to budge on the Saturday. I was nervous at the time, and I suppose not thinking straight, or as quickly as normal, then the subject quickly changed and now I'm potentially stuck with a court agreement that doesn't actually work for me or DS. I feel so stupid!
because of my shifts, it now means that for two days midweek, I get to see DS for 20mins before work, then an hour when he gets back before bed. Then the following day..not at all, as i work a 12hr shift, and then he's away all but one weekend in a month! When DS starts school I will see him even less
I wanted to go in to court and be reasonable, but i feel I've been too reasonable. And FWIW, exp doesn't seem to worry about being reasonable, he is wealthy, very wealthy, and refuses pay child maintenance to spite me, and gets away with it also as he is becoming self employed 
which makes it all the more gutting and frustrating and like I've let him walk over me again
I'm due to see my lawyer at the end of the week but desperate for some advice before then...am i able to 'take it back' as such??
and what does a court agreement actually stand for, what does it mean? I know my lawyer won't advise to stop the midweek contact, but I were to, what is the worst that could happen, a telling off from the judge? the judge never actually ordered anything, this was what we had agreed to in advance. I'm not sure how my relationship with DS will be able to develop and grow with the lack of quality time we have together, the thought of another 5 years of this is thoroughly depressing