AIBU to feel envious of people starting maternity leave when mine will be ending?

[GlitteringJasper]

I feel bad that I have this feeling but I can't help it.

I know I won't be having any more dc as I hated pregnancy and suffered really badly with sickness. I have two dc, one of each, with a small age gap and could not face looking after 2 under 2.5 and being pregnant. I also feel that I missed 9 months of my eldest's life as I was pretty much useless during second pregnancy.

Recently 3 friends/colleagues have announced their pregnancies and coincidentally will be going on ML when I'm starting back to work.

I'm going back 3 days so I'll still have time at home but I feel really envious!

I just look at my gorgeous baby and want her to stay squishy and baby like for ever!

I'm sad that this chapter in my life will soon be over.

It's v strange as before having children I couldn't have given a toss about who was pregnant/on ML!

I'll never voice these feelings in RL as I probably sound awful.

AIBU to feel like this?

Yanbu to feel it although you would if you said it lol, its natural to not want to leave your kids!

YANBU. I havent even had this baby (38+4), cant wait to hold my baby but I feel sad that this will probably be my last one. Difference is I'm one of those really annoying women who have easy pregnancies so I feel a bit sad about that too! I am sure I will feel like you when I have to go back to work.

YANBU at all! DS is10 months and I've just gone back to work. I love my (difficult and stressful) job, and I'm weirdly enjoying being back, but bloody hell am I jealous of my pregnant friends! We'll probably only have the one DC, so this is it - that makes me so sad. You are definitely not alone OP.

YANBU

Yabu when thinking about it logically. Your baby is here, so if I were the pg one I would be jealous of you. You have your time at hone with your baby as they will have theirs. They aren't getting anything more

But also yanbu, because its an emotional response not a logical one and I think we all feel like this a bit. I don't want more than 2, never had. But remember feeling a bit sad in the few days after ds was born, that I would never do the pregnancy/ new born thing again. This was my last time. I am happy with the decision to stop. But it still made me a bit sad.