To wish some good luck would come my way

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Just fed up of the same old thing, I'm very lonely and only have my mum really, no friends. Had a shit childhood and I've always wanted a family of my own. I'm just gutted that I haven't met anyone and I'm such an outsider. I can't imagine why anyone would want to be with someone like me because i'm quite old-fashioned. I'm still a virgin at 25, never had a bf, depression etc, just feel stuck in a rut. I don't know where to start i've missed out on so much.

I wouldn't worry too much about joining clubs or booking holidays at the moment. Life will not get better for you in any significant way until you get away from that arsehole.

Are you in a financial position to start saving for a deposit?

You have already started to change your life by posting on here. That's was a very brave first step. There has been some great advice already and I seecond all if it! Get yourself out to a club, try a reading group,make small steps and you will become empowered to try new things with the new people you meet. Please don't feel alone, anytime you feel down or need advice post on here, I have found mumsnetters often offer really good advice and virtual hand holding. Good luck!

Thank you all. I have a holiday booked for Sept (Florida) so looking forward to that with my mum. I wasn't sure if I should book it but I didn't want to put my life on hold because of a woman beater. I will be saving to move after the holiday and hopefully I can find a job too and maybe things will go my way for once.

It sounds like u have good plans for this year and you have a plan of where you want to be heading with your life. It's unfortunate that you have an arsehole to contend with but you know you don't deserve to be treated like that.
A major turning point would be to consider finding somewhere to live, it could be just as what you need to focus on. I really hope it works out for you.

you have a lot to look forward to, finishing uni will bring a lot of new exciting experiences. Is there no way you could move into shared student accomodation or just a normal houseshare? You mind find your day to day life improves massively once you've got that independence.