To think I will never be happy with my body

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I can't decide if I am or not really. In some respects I think how can IBU when it's my body and my feelings.
Then I think that I'm healthy and fit and not liking what I 'look' like is a first world problem so IABU

I can't remember a time when I have ever been happy with my body, I have had disordered eating but that was also to do with control issues, I was young about 14 so since then I always remember hating my body
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I want to be happy with myself so AIBU and is there anyone who has been in the same position but now accepts themselves for whom they are? And how have you achieved it ?

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Counselling. Best thing I've ever done; it's changed my perspective on everything. It wasn't anything to do with body issues or eating disorders at all, it's just a by-product of feeling better about myself generally.

The way I look at it, my body was amazing enough to provide me with two healthy, happy children. I can run, walk, skip and chase them, I can swim for miles, I can throw a cricket ball like a pro and I can run 5k without dying. I might be a sturdy girl, that'll never change til I stop eating cake and drinking cocktails. I'm not prepared to live without either of those things, but my body is no less amazing for not looking like Cara Delevigne in a bikini.

I read past diaries in which I bemoan my body/weight- I was at least 2 stone lighter at the time. Unfortunately I think I compare myself to others all the time which completely lowers my self esteem as I'm usually the ugly/fat one in the group.
it'd be hard to admit to never going to be happy with body. I always hope one day I will realise I'm not so bad after all...