To not want to stay and not want to go?

[Underthedeepblueocean]

After my dad died 3 and a half years ago I have lived in my childhood home. It's a beautiful house but it is hard to live in the place my mum and dad lived and in many ways it keeps my grief alive.

At the same time I can't ever conceive of selling it!

Aibu to feel like this? Now on a rainy spring evening in put in mind of thousands of evenings like this from my childhood and it's comforting but also odd.

It must be a very tough call OP. Truly bitter sweet.

Yanbu give yourself time. You may be ready, youmay not. Unless financial situation dictates, be kind to yourself.

Is there any way you can change it so it feels more 'new' and yours? If you love the house it would be sad to get rid of it. It must be so difficult to decide. I can't get rid of anything even slightly sentimental so I appreciate how bloody tough this is.

What a hard place to be in Do you feel happy in your day to day life? Work ok and things?

Could you completely redecorate and remodel? Friend did this with her parents house. She changed layout downstairs, put a new bathroom and kitchen in with units/suit in different positions. Put French doors in ect.

She feels she is honouring their memory but has made it her own house so it doesn't feel like she is living with ghosts.

There are some changes but its odd. DS has the same bedroom my brother had!

Not the same situation really but my uncle died a couple of weeks ago. He wanted his upstairs neighbour to have first dibs on buying it so this is going through but really I want to keep the place because it's his and and I can't imagine it not being there, which is stupid. We have cleared a lot of it but there is another days worth before its empty, in reality I don't want to go back as I know that will make it final. Not sure why I'm posting really, just feeling a touch sentimental.