Pil offered to have the children everyday so I could go to work full-time and they wanted the kids to be with them rather than a childminder. I pay petrol as they have to collect the kids everyday from school my dilemma is they come back and cook twice a week for us all and help out which is great.
Sometimes I find it hard coming home with a house full, I feel guilt leaving them when I should be taking care of them and I do a long full week like most mums.
I feel I can not ask them to look after the kids at the weekend, we don't go out anymore as a couple as know one to have kids and I would not ask pil as this would be very selfish.
Should I go back to childminder and get her to have kids one day a week , or find another childminder for all week, or stay with pil.
My parents are elderly and unable to help ,
Also they have the kids three days in the holidays but my childcare for the other two days has fallen through so should I put them in a kids club for the week instead.