AIBU for being scared of having another DC?

[Tinaballerina]

I have 2.5 YO DS who I love to bits. However DH has now raised the prospect of having DC2.

I am completely torn as:

I love our little family so much and I'm scared that the dynamic will change. I also love my son so much I'm not sure I have enough love to spare for another child.

I'm 37 and worried about complications of being older and pregnant.

We live in a small two bed flat so another child would mean DS sharing or the upheaval of moving.

I feel guilty that DS doesn't have a sibling relationship, I want everything to be perfect for him and don't want him to miss out.

I would really love to have a daughter. I had a miserable childhood with my mother and my relationship with her now is none existent, and I want to be able to have a mother/daughter relationship. I sometimes have to swollow back tears when I see other little girls with their mothers. I don't know how Id feel if we had another boy. Please don't flame me for this – I'm just being honest.

AIBU even contemplating DC2 against this background?

Hmm!
Well I'm with you in a way, I'm way too worried about childcare,money, logistics to consider having another. Also the inevitable c section, colic, crazy hormones and losing weight.
I love how much energy I can dedicate to 1 dc, I am one of 5 and im not close to my siblings but we do get on really well when we do meet up, I do feel though that as a kid I slipped under the radar alot, didnt get much attention etc naturally.
I guess yanbu

I think you are BU for wanting life to be perfect for DS. Life isn't perfect, if you constantly try to make it so he might grow up to be very disappointed and a bit You will love another baby, boy or girl. If you have a girl great, if you have a boy at least u won't be running the risk of history repeating itself as per your mum and you. Good luck whatever you chose to do