To have another baby?

[Elfina]

DD is 2.5.

I had HG all through pregnancy, a traumatic, 2 hour birth that left me with 3b tears, followed by a prolapse. I had PND that presented much more like extreme anxiety; I struggled to leave the house for the first 6 months. I hated maternity Leave.

I have a job I love. Although we have a good income (80k approx), we livd in London, in a 2 bed flat without a garden. Oh, and childcare is £60 per day, here!

DD and I are have a brilliant bond, which I'm so pleased about in light of my severe PND. I don't know whether it's a good idea to rock that boat?

DH would like another, and my hormones are telling screaming at me to have another...

It's hard ??

It is hard, but if it is what you want then go for it. This pregnancy may be the same as your first, but then it may be completely different! My first pregnancy and birth were a breeze, this pregnancy has been awful. I suffered with PND and as a result I'll be monitored closely after baby arrives, in many ways it will be easier to spot this time around as I have so many people looking out for me.

It is terrifying to take that leap, but will you regret it if you don't?

It sounds like you've had a tough time of it, I think postnatal anxiety is a huge and under-recognised problem but having come through it once hopefully you'll be better equipped to spot the early warning signs and get some extra support, it isn't something that anyone should feel they have to face alone.

I think as long as you planned for the worse eg care for dd if your struck with hg, what would happen to your prolapse then why not.