Namechanged because I think I'm going to come across as really weird. For the past 4-5 years I've felt so horribly achingly broody, DH and I have a 12 year old already but both wanted another and we ttc for over a year before other things, mainly finances, got in the way and we've stopped trying - don't see us ever being able to afford another tbh (I know people find ways, you manage etc, but just for us I don't think it's doable).
Recently BIL & SIL had a baby and I really struggled with a lot of envy at them while SIL was pregnant, but obviously didn't make it at all evident. Since our niece was born though it's slowly dawned on me that I'm really ok with not having another baby, I've balanced up what we'd sacrifice in my mind and I'm content with my family as it is. I've figured out the real crux of the broodiness is I really want to cuddle a baby, on my own, for just a day or once every now and again. I know how ridiculous that sounds and that most people like cuddling babies but I don't mean 'ooh, that would be nice', it's a real burning 'need' in the same way as 'needing' another baby. BIL lives a long way from so have only seen my niece briefly from time to time and had the odd quick cuddle but I couldn't for example offer to babysit for the day to see if that helps, and I don't know anyone else planning to have kids.
I don't think I'm explaining it well, I probably sound crackers but it honestly feels like this deep down need to just have my own space and a baby to look after, just for a few hours (even if it was screaming the place down) - sort of like if no-one spoke to you for a week you'd be craving just a stupid conversation. I still feel the same even after cuddling DH/DD and we have a pet so it's not a lack of physical contact or something to look after. And I'm not about to go out baby snatching if it comes across like that 
How do I get rid of this feeling?