I've posted about her before, but it's something that's worrying me, today especially as I was talking to my sister about an incident that happened recently.
i've posted before about this tedious 'partner' cunt who's currently married and leading her up the garden path lets call him A,
A: "can you turn your XBox down (yes he's 20, no job, still lives at home, no money, mummy pays for everything) so i can make a work call"
Dbro; "I will in a minute"
2 minutes later he turned, he still hasn't turned it down
A;"I fucking told you to turn it down I'm trying to make a work call"
DBro; "Does this look like your fucking office?"
A; "you want to be careful or I'm going to knock you the fuck out"
Dbro *follows him into the front room" "Come on then"
A punched my 'd'Bro in the face, ribs and pinned him to the floor he's 20 and he's a horrible person to say the least (swung a knife at me whilst holding 6 month DS, threatened to stab me numerous times) A's 40 odd.
All the while she's standing there screaming "stop fighting, stop fighting" yet not trying to stop it. DBro turns round and head butts him.
My sister and her DH was called and went round there, she and A had kicked him out the house, as soon as there's people round A's saying "let's not fall out over this now, comm'on lets be friends", 5 minutes later A's demanding "you 3 kids (28, 21, 20) need to respect me and get some morals all the while his kid and wife are at home unaware that he's still having this affair. Tell's my mum to back him up and she's standing there gormless as ever and muttering she agrees' with him. This man has just assaulted her son, her own flesh and blood and she's now telling him he needs to respect this "man" and get his morals in order. When asked why she turns round and say's "I'll always pick A, kids leave you" She's now broke, burn through my grandpa's inheritance, mortgaged her house and has nothing.
The thing is I'm scared to death I'm going to turn into that, hideous excuse of a mother, even as kids she'd rather buy you a new toy then say she love you, you missed behave/have an argument/ be a kid and did something she didn't like and it would be "I brought you ..... when you were 5, I took you on holiday when you were 7" ect.
She use to put us in the car, drive to a car park and tell us she was putting us in care and it was our fault, she did this about 5 times and always drove us home after if we promised to stop being good/annoying her. She would often phone "SS" and tell them she wanted rid of us in front of us.
I don't want to turn into that, It scares me that I'm 50% genetically part of whatever narcissistic crazy ass crap that she is. 5 years ago if you asked me if she would put some married man she's shagging before her kids, let them beat them up, kick them out and then demand respect and morals from them I would of said like hell, never in a million years. I can't ever imagine myself letting my DP beat my son out then kicking him to the curb and blaming him, but If I thought she couldn't and she can then what does that say about me. 
DS is so innocent, adorable and cute, I tell him I love him daily, numerous times and I do, however I'm sure she played that part to friends and family to and if you'd asked her she would same the same.
I don't want to turn into her, and I'm so worried I will.