Actually - it's not really a proper aibu - am just a bit fed up really. Second day in hospital with excacerbation of asthma and no signs of escape imminent.
Today I woke to a really low peakflow and iv aminophylline infusion was changed for a magnesium sulphate one, with additional cardiac monitor and back to back nebulisers so have been tethered to the bed really... I was starting to feel a bit better last night but all the steroids and drugs have weirded me out a bit.
I feel tired but can't sleep. My room doesn't have a signal so I have to wait until I am feeling well enough and am untethered and can walk down the bottom of the ward for a signal. I can't really concentrate enough to read, and just feel out of sorts and distracted. Im missing my children - they are staying with my ex, who is a good egg, and my mum died a few months ago and the whole hospital stuff is triggering it.
On the positive side, I have my own room in a new ward, with ensuite.The doctors and nurses are lovely, and I know I am getting good care. My ex brought the children in tonight and brought me some crisps and penguins as I have a steroid fuelled compunction to eat owt not nailed down - the children are quite happy and feel it's quite a novelty to hear someone elses voice nag them in the morning... Erm..I had a toe wrestling competition this morning and the right toe won. My line manager inadvertently brought me in a raunchy book by mistake.I'm not tethered down at the moment and just have one more neb tonight at 12 then I can try to sleep - I just feel a bit miserable and scared at night.
Tell me to pull myself together!