I am NC with my mother (for reasons that span decades and aren't relevant to this post). She was diagnosed with lung cancer over 10 years ago, and the cancer recurred about a year and a half ago. I just found out today (third hand, via a Facebook comment that crossed my news feed) that the cancer is terminal and she is in Hospice care.
Not surprisingly, this has prompted me to do a lot of thinking about whether I should contact her and try to reconcile, remain NC, or lay the cards on the table. For the record, I am leaning writing a long letter, sealing it and not doing anything more with it (not sending it), but have not decided beyond that point.
Anyhow, to the matter at hand - since learning this but not prior I have been feeling mildly short of breath and have a distinct heaviness in my chest. I am on medication for high blood pressure, but had cardiac tests about a year and a half ago and nothing concerning was found (tests were because of family history).
The timing is too coincidental to be a coincidence, am I out of my mind to chalk it up to a reaction to the news and the spinning in my head and just dismiss it?
In the interest of full disclosure, and to avoid being accused of drip feeding, I am trained as a paramedic, so am acutely aware of the risks of dismissing it, but I also have no desire to spend Friday evening in A&E for psychosomatic complaints.