Hi,
I feel at such a loss, sick of feeling this way and don't really know who to discuss it with in real life? I see a lot of posts on here from women who come across as extremely intelligent, they seem to know where they are going in life and have things sussed. If you are one of them women, can you help/advise me?! 
Long story short I live with my Mother (since I separated with my ex) I have a child who is approaching 5 and is now in Reception at school. I was 30 last month and feel like i'm having a mid life crisis! Shouldn't I have things sorted by now? I run a small business that isn't doing well, people simply don't have the money to pay for my services as it's not an essential, more of a pamper. I rely on working tax credit and with all the changes coming in such as Universal credit etc, I am not comfortable with how my working life is. It could all be taken away from me if I struggle to hit minimum wage for the hours I work and obviously with having a child to support I can't live like that. I could go and get a job and I have looked, but all the jobs in my area are shop work/care work/call centre work at minimum wage. If I go down this road i'll still be reliant on tax credits. I really want to give a new business ago, something I can make work so that hopefully, eventually, I can be a productive member of society who pays taxes.
I can't afford to move out from my Mothers (This is a living nightmare, but she's very kind to let us live with her) And I feel like such a failure. Lately I struggle to get out of bed and feel permanently down, always on the verge of tears. My mind works over time constantly trying to figure out what to do next. I do a fair bit of voluntary work in the hopes it will lead to a career in the industry i'm volunteering in, but of course there are no guarantees.
What i'm asking for really is some advice on two things, the first is this -
My wonderful Dad (Don't see much of him as he lives abroad) is retired now, he has a decent pension and is comfortable. He owns a small flat in a nice area in my City and the plan has always been that he'll leave this to me. He paid £100,000 for it about 10 years ago. He has a £15,000 mortgage left on it. These flats are now selling for about £65,000 so he doesn't want to sell it (or me to sell it when it becomes mine) Someone rents it off him right now but when they leave it will be mine for me and my child to move into, it'll be our own home if i'm hopefully sorted enough then to deal with the mortgage and bills. I've been thinking though, once it's signed over to me, would it make sense to re-mortgage, buy a couple of run down houses and do them up and sell them on? Could this be the start of a career for me or am I being ridiculous? Obviously i'd have to do plenty of research beforehand but i'm not sure where i'd start with that? If I went ahead and did this, would I have to come off all tax credits straight away? Just wondering how that would work and would it mean living on nothing until sales were complete etc?
The second thing i'm looking for is to start up a new, small business, with the hopes of eventually earning a decent enough living for myself and my child. I just have no inspiration at all and am shamelessly hoping that you may be able to help me with ideas? I have no talents besides being a good talker, I have great communication skills and I am a confident public speaker. I was thinking of perhaps going down the route of sourcing something to sell on ebay to start me off, but then would it be worth it with sellers fees etc? Unless I set up a Facebook/Instagram page and worked that way. I'm interested in women's fashion/designer items such as sunglasses, shoes, bags etc, although I cannot afford to treat myself to these things, but I do enjoy daydreaming about one day being able to, was vaguely thinking of trying to source these kind of items, but maybe this too is a ridiculous idea. My Dad would loan me some money to start me off. I also spend a bit of time at my local auction, they do a lot of ex display stuff from Costco such as coffee machines/household applicances for decent prices, they always seem to have Ugg boots in and sunglasses etc, was thinking this may also be a start?
If you've read this far, thank you. I probably sound like I haven't got a clue, because I haven't! I'm just clutching at straws and trying to get my life sorted in some way as it appears to be such a mess right now. Any ideas of advice you could offer would be greatly appreciated.