NCed for this thread, but regular.
I just need to wail at the world for a second. Apologies in advance - this is going to be a pity party, but I have to get it out somewhere!
I just found out my grandmother has cancer. I cannot believe it. I have always denied to myself that she's getting on because she's full of mischief and energy.
My cat, who has been with me through thick and thin is dying of cancer too.
I am unable to work because of ill health. I am a writer but I can't even think straight enough to read a simple book. I am on hormonal drugs that act as a depressant and I feel truly low. Emotionally, I am no longer coping. All my joints ache.
I have a dental abscess, and despite 3 days of antibiotics It. Still. Hurts.
I found out in the last couple of months that I probably can't have children, and I don't feel like I've even started to process this yet. I just feel... bereft.
Here comes the practical bit: I am due in for surgery later this week. It's the second time I've had the op, because it didn't work first time around.
I have no support from family - they are hundreds of miles away. I've been ill for some time and friends have stopped seeing me or calling. I understand they are busy - most have children and full time work and that is more than enough for anyone. I also think they struggle to know what to say with the illness, or how to deal with someone who has become quite unable to do the active things I used to do. I (selfishly) feel very lonely. I don't even seem to get noticed on Facebook any more.
DH is wonderful, but already working long hours and trying to hold things together.
Here comes the practical issue: I need to stock up on ready meals that DH and I can cook quickly and easily for the post-surgery period. I will not be able to stand for longer than 10 minutes or to walk very far, and I will need my five a day to recover! I don't have a clue what to get or how easy they are to do. I went to M&S at the weekend, but they seemed to have very little that was veggie (I don't eat meat or fish). Please recommend me some nice things to eat for the next fortnight!