to be pissed off

[Mrsstarlord]

(I know I am but I want a rant)

So every morning at the moment I end up waking up at about 3 or 4am with whirly brain about all the things I need to do at work. Usually I get up and just do it - so this morning I have been working for 3 1/2 hours already and its 6.30. At this moment in time it feels like I might have actually achieved something but by 9am there will be another 30 emails and things to do.

It feels never bloody ending, theres a big thing that I have been working on which is almost there but every time it feels like I'm getting somewhere something happens / someone finds something to complain about.

I have been offered another job which is great but just waiting to hear about terms and conditions before I can hand my notice in - this seems to be taking forever and it's so frustrating.

Its as though with everything, there is an end in sight but it's just out of reach and whenever I think I'm there someone moves the goal posts.

Without going into detail, there is a lot going on at home with everyone in the family (except me) having long term health and disability issues but I can't even concentrate on them because I'm always bloody working.

Its not fair!

Anyway IABU, I need to put on my big girl panties and get a bloody grip!

Yanbu I do wake too with all those thoughts and am very far behind in work too. However yabu getting up at 3 am to work. You will burn yourself out. Are you getting paid for all those extra hours . New job sounds like a good plan.

No chance of getting paid or even acknowledged for it!

You're right about burning myself out, its just that the alternative is me lying and stressing. Can you take some time out to try and catch up or are you also snowed under with new things coming in all the time?

New job is a bit less money but should mean now work at home (or at least minimal) so when I leave the job I can focus on the family. Just wish I could hand in my notice!

I was in a similar position last year, had a horribly stressful job that consumed my whole life, sat in the office from 7am until often past midnight, then struggling to sleep when I did get home because of everything rushing round in my head and that never ending pressure of too much to do and very little time to achieve any of it. It affected everything, my relationship with DH, my children, my house, health and mental well being.

I felt stuck in in because it paid very well for the area of the UK we live in, and I felt loyalty to my clients and staff but it did get too much and I was hugely fortunate to be offered a position with one of my clients which although less money has made such a huge difference. I'm able to get home and see my kids at a decent time, cook proper meals again and my mind is no longer working a million miles an hour. I feel like a different person.

I was really lucky, and if you have the opportunity to get out of this damaging position then definitely go for it. Once the paperwork is sorted you should feel a massive weight being lifted. It's a case of grit your teeth until then by the sounds of it but you will get there. I hope you manage to see a better balance soon.

Do your employers know this?

They either do and are giving you too much to do or you are not working effectively which let's be honest how many of us would be on these hours with family issues too.

Or they don't know the stupid hours you are doing and think the workload is ok.

New job or not you should speak to them. Anyone following you into the role may have problems too if they are given too much. As my previous employer is now finding out having a person full time plus help to do what I was trying to on part time hours plus an expert to try and show them more effective working methods.

Bunny - you are right about a weight being lifted, just got to hang in there! Glad things have changed for you, this is what I'm hoping for - in the words of dory from finding Nemo 'just keeping swimming, swimming,swimming....'
Magoria - you make some really good points. I think they know that in general people struggle but it's quite a critical atmosphere (although superficially supportive). I will talk to them about it, thank you.