Ok, I'm thinking of going on ESA. I know it's the best thing, working makes me really ill, and not in a controllable gradual way, in a way where I take on more and more shifts and get more and more excited and think I know better than everyone and make really stupid and dangerous decisions and become disruptive and eventually either collapse and lock myself away or get sectioned. (I have bipolar disorder and that is me on meds)
BUT. When I'm stable or on the way up or down I come across as even better than normal. I go out loads, spend money and show off about it, etc. so people judge me and it makes me want to kill myself. (Told you I'm bipolar!)
Anyway. Pretend you are a knob who judges me behind my back, making me paranoid. I know I shouldn't care, but I do. What would make you less likely to judge me? I have two primary school age kids, I'm a single mum who does some looking after of my grandmother but not enough to qualify as a carer, and she is another one who can 'pass' as well, but needs help with things like using her TV, getting paranoid, taking her meds etc.
So! Help me avoid judgy people by judging me!