Should I just accept that this is my life now?

[ShiitakeMushrooms]

I am a single Mum to 2 DC, I have no friends but I see family on a regular basis.

My family get together regularly and go out a lot but I can't attend as I have DC (both under 5).

It's my DP' anniversary soon and they are taking the whole family out for a night (it will be amazing) but again I know that I'm going to be in on my own watching shit TV.

I haven't got anyone who can babysit (all the family are going) and my DC are very clingy when I'm not near them, they wouldn't settle in bed and if they woke up during the night and I wasn't there they couldn't cope.

I'm in my late 20's and I'm saddened by my lack of time spent for myself and how much I am missing out on with my family.

I love my DC and I wouldn't change them for the world but I cannot help but feel that a night out with family would be amazing as I haven't been out since before they were born.

AIBU to feel this way or should I just suck it up and accept that this is my life now?

This is all quite odd actually OP and I feel really sad for you. Your family know you are a single parent but they do all their socialising in the evenings so you can't join them. Not only that but when you try to sort out a way to make sure you can spend some time with them they tell you it's not right to leave your children with a babysitter. Surely a loving family would be helping and supporting you not leaving you out and criticising you when you try to join in?

I think you need to organise a babysitter but widen your social circle so that you aren't just mixing with your family. It's good to be independent and have your own life.

Start thinking of ways of taking control & managing your situation. You are a grown up.

Your family sound so like mine...
I was in a similar situation to you. I met someone new. Had more dc. 2 of my dc are disabled.

My dp left. My family moved. My friends moved or lost interest. I employ carers not babysitters so around £20 an hour. My younger son has been pernamently excluded from school so had to resign from my job...
Wanna swap? Can you tell I've had a tough weekend!?

I'm only teasing. My point is there is always ways to deal with a situation. Your dc will go to school. You need to think about what YOU want, not your family.
Good luck.

It's well worth asking at the nursery. Not all of the staff at DS's nursery do it, but quite a few of them do and I know a lot of people who've found babysitters that way.

Why haven't you got any friends?