Posting here for traffic and feeling desperate. Woke up at 5.40am in panic about the forthcoming work day and how much I am unsuited to my job.
Background: I suppose I'm fairly intelligent (at least academically). Oxbridge degree in history and MSc in International Relations. Am currently working as a litigator in the City and hate it. Have been doing law (including training contract) for four years now and it's becoming increasingly obvious to everyone that this is not sustainable.
I don't care about my job. I don't care about the clients. I don't like a lot of the people I work with. My lack of care manifests as lack of attention to detail, occasional errors and feedback that I am not sufficiently enthusiastic. No shit.
So, please, please people of mumsnet, give me some ideas.
About me - I have been described as a maverick. I am impatient, clever, not especially "good" with people (I'm not a people-person particularly - I can get on and make polite conversation but I'm not naturally warm or bubbly), I do not like being told what to do and am not great at taking criticism. I have generally enjoyed fighting against the norm - fighting for the underdog (I enjoy CSR and lead a lot of CSR initiatives at work), fighting inequality (I'm involved with LGBT rights), sticking my head above the parapet and challenging a lot of "City" attitudes. This does not always make me popular.
Ideally I want to run my own business and be my own boss. Ideas I've had include starting a tutoring business, a nursery (but lack of premises is proving difficult), going into property development/buy-to-let and buying and running a B&B. In theory, if push came to shove, I could probably free up around £80,000 in capital to start a business.
So - please, please give me some ideas. Re-training is a possibility (I've always been drawn to midwifery as I love babies and like medicine, but fear that I would be awful at building a rapport with women).
Just throw some ideas out there - am all ears!