To feel utter fucking bollocks

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My DS is nearly 5, his dad and I separated so my DS was dropped home by his dad yesterday morning after his days with DS. From the minute my DS stepped into the house he has been a total pest! I am skint this weekend due to it being the end of month and patiently waiting for pay day. The weather here in Glasgow has been bollocks too so we ain't really done much outside of the house which I know is a contributing factor to his behaviour. Whenever we have done an activity in the house it's lasted minutes because of DS having a tantrum.

Today he went to play at his friends house 2 doors down today and when I went to collect him all hell broke loose which resulted in my DS punching me in the fist twice! I was so embarrassed and really upset! I got him home bathed him and put him straight to bed, he kept trying to talk to me about usual 5 year old stuff but I honestly couldn't look at him and had to walk away from him. I have had to give him into trouble quite a bit this weekend due to his behaviour. I'm sat here in tears feeling like a total fucking failure and like my DS hates me, he told me today he hated me!

champion it's not ok! I don't feel bollocks cos I got mad at my DS for punching me, he was wrong and I told him so. I feel bad because I feel the lead up to it was my fault. I couldn't afford to take him anywhere over the weekend, it was too wet and windy to go to a park or for a big walk which I'd normally do when we couldn't do things like soft play, cinema, bowling, etc.

I've had to give him into trouble a lot over the weekend so I feel like I've been constantly moaning at him. I also felt bad because I think I could have dealt with it better rather than leaving him to go to sleep with me angry with him.

I'm also embarrassed as it happened in someone else's house and it's horrible when your child can lash out like that and tell me he hates me

OP, how are things now? A bit more settled, I hope. Weather still rubbish though, I know.

Sometimes with my DSC they play up due to transitioning between their parents house. They test the boundaries sometimes. It's not that either parent is lax, or more generous or have different boundaries it's the kids struggling to handle the change between houses. Take care OP. You'll get things back under control.

Yup, every time he goes away you can expect 24 hrs of absolute hell while he unwinds, catches up on sleep, and kicks against your normal boundaries. This is what kids do. Try to stay calm, be firm in your normal boundaries and your lovely kid will be back shortly. Tis normal, just effing hard work. He's probably been on best behaviour with his dad, little horror, and now he can relax and express his feelings. Not your fault at all