To eat the trick or treat sweets

[Latara]

I am so fed up today, everything has gone wrong & now I can't stop myself from eating the bucket of haribo I bought for Halloween.

Who else can't stop bingeing on food or whatever when they are miserable? I know I will regret it later.

I've ate all of the chews and Drumstick lollies already!

I'm having the shittest day.

I have the double whammy of hidden halloween sweets and biscuits for midwife/labour snackies.

I don't even feel bad. I'm fucking eating it all.

Anyway I've stopped bingeing on the sweets now because it doesn't make me feel any better.

The main problem is work - it's a long boring story; I had a psychotic breakdown at work in 2012 & I'm trying to get my original job back (I've been working in a lower paid role since then while I've been recovering).
It seems that every time I get somewhere there are just more obstacles to overcome.
I did feel really suicidal earlier because I have just had enough of it all but because I'm on lots of meds I soon stopped feeling like that & started eating my way though haribo instead!

I'm 2 stone overweight & desperate to lose weight because it feels really unhealthy so I'm trying to not keep 'bad' foods in the house. So instead I end up bingeing on stupid stuff like cereal bars and fruit! Which can still keep weight on unfortunately. It is a form of self harm but it's better than more destructive types of self harm I suppose.

Well now it's 5am and I haven't slept at all, I don't know whether to go to work tomorrow or not, I just feel wiped out by everything and can't stop crying it's really pathetic but I don't feel like I've got any future really. I don't know what to do.

I would kill myself but I can't.

Woah... are you ok? Just seen this.

I can be on here pretty much all morning if you need a chat.

Oh dear, this has moved way beyond eating haribo.

OP- if you haven't slept last night then you are going to be exhausted. Ring in sick to work today and try and get some sleep. Can you get to a GP today? It sounds as though you may need your medication reviewed.

I agree about the GP, definitely.

I have just woken up & a nurse from the CMHT rang me after I did phone them yesterday.

I feel a bit better about things now & am going to work & try to sort things out. I am really tired but will just take things steady. Thanks for asking.

Hi OP,

So sorry to hear you're feeling down. Please do take a look at our webguide if you're in need of someone to talk to, although we're glad to see you're seeking help.

Wishing you all the best.

Thank you. I do have the CMHT to call if I feel down again.

How are you Latara Did you go into work?

I've been eating the sweets too. I've already replaced one bag!

kinky I am going to go into work; just a little later than planned because I didn't sleep last night. I'm doing an afternoon shift. The manager will be annoyed that I'm late but I will still get there before the morning shift leave.

magiciansgirl I've eaten all the haribo now & wish I hadn't...

latara

Hope you're ok