To refuse a smear test (may be triggering)

[Toooldtobearsed]

Background: I have BC 6 years ago. I had a lumpectomy, then mastectomy, chemo, radiotherapy, a second mastectomy, reconstruction.
I then was diagnosed with ovarian cancer, had an oopherectomy.

I am 53 and have always said that that is it. I would choose to have no further treatment should cancer pop up again, and to be fair, it may well - I am considered high risk and should still see my oncologist every six months, but took the decision to stop, due to the fact that I would refuse further treatment.

So, I am being hounded by my GP to go for a smear. DH wants me to go, but I don't see the point. If something bad came back I would be forced to face that final choice and I would rather continue in blissful ignorance until I dropped. DH supports whatever decision I make, but is hurt that I won't do everything possible to still be with him in old age.

So, am I being unreasonable to choose to simply leave my future to fate?

Chipped I have already held my hands up regarding ignorance about smear tests, but I really don't need help with coming to terms with what has happened.

I have come to terms, I have simply made the decision that I will not have any further treatment, should it be needed. I am at peace with that.

I am not stupid, I know I would not just painlessly keel over by ignoring any symptoms until it was too late to treat, but it takes the pressure off me of having to 'decide' again and to put my DH and DCs through the trauma of that decision.

I stand corrected on the question of a smear test though, so thank you for the info on that

Good luck Tooold nothing about being treated for cancer is easy.