to ask you to help me woman up

[dancingwithmyselfandthecat]

I've had a rotten few months. My business failed and I'm doing a lousy temp job which I hate.

Today, I get the good news that I've been offered an amazing permanent job which is the kind of thing I've always wanted.

Do I leap into the air and start singing with joy? No, I have a panic attack.

Panic attack subsides but I am absolutely terrified. I am currently sitting outside the office on my lunchbreak shaking. I actually cried before. I feel sick.

This is absolutely ludicrous. I want to slap myself around the face. I spent years having CBT and doing self help and everything else, and I made amazing process. I was fine all through the rotten periods. And now this. I mean, what kind of wierdo am I if my anxiety is retriggered by good news?

Absolutely 100% true Dancing if I know what I'm doing next week it's a massive bonus. I'm nearly 30 and I have no idea if what I'm doing now I'll be doing in the long run or even if I'm satisfied in my job. I like it well enough but will it be forever I just don't know. Also my dh who I think is amazing at his job and I know he loves it and has spent well over a decade training and climbing the ladder is in constant state of fear that he won't be good enough to progress any further or if he'll be able to get a job in his field when his current contract ends. He is always trying to think of plan B or other ways of improving his chances of going further.

I'm certain that very few people wake up every morning knowing that they are completely fulfilled by their jobs and know exactly what they are doing or where they are going.

Congrats on new job you'll be great!

Brilliant, well done! I too reckon that your body is letting go with relief after all you have been through. Ride the storm, their are good times ahead. And don't worry I work in law, and spend my whole life feeling like I am playing at being a grown so and a professional.

Hurrah! A job you love! congrats! I agree it is probably just relief and excitement. Sometimes our bodies get confused about which emotion belongs to which sensation.

Thank you all so much.

I have finally calmed down. The job might work out or it might not, but I have to give it a go. The panic I felt was a physical response no more a reflection of my abilities than a bad period cramp or a pimple on my nose.

It's so odd with anxiety - the way it creeps up and attacks you when you least expect it. I'm so lucky I've got the good vipers of mumsnet to woman me up in the best possible way

:)

One relapse does not mean you're back to the beginning... Go back and look at v you're CBT stuff, you still have the skills to cope with this, it's just a momentary blip... Oh and congrats

YANBU, and as for the panic attack a pp said it could be triggered by some reverse effect of relief? Kinda like laughing when you receive bad news?* I panic at change, even if it's good change. Come out in cold sweats and full blown panic attacks until I can get to my safe place (normally my bed) and rationalise everything.

*This happened to me when I was told my grandad passed. I went into a fit of hysterical laughter that ended with me dissolving into hysterical tears