To feel so lost and conflicted and churned up inside?

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I'm so sorry but I desperately need to talk to somebody about how I'm feeling just now, I just don't know what to do at all.

Work is stressing me out, I'm rubbish at it and I don't like it. But I'm in my 30s and want DC s, I'm not in a position to have them now but retraining would take at least 3 years. So I feel like I have to choose whether to stay in my current career and have children in the future, or retrain and not have children at all!

I just feel lost and so very unhappy.

Just thinking if you hate it that much and feel that upset could you possibly give in your notice, find ANY job and then have a think? I did this after 4 years of teaching, loathed it, gave in my notice, did some supply/youth work and then ended up at a different school that I absolutely adored, been there 14 years now!

I taught for one term only. It was a disaster for me and I found it very stressful. I left and have had a successful career since and enjoyed life a lot more.

Re biological clock, how are you trying to meet a man? My pal has had some success on match.com. Sometimes relationships don't just happen, we have to seek them out.

Go for the retraining cos it's a certainty you will have to work for the next x-odd years. So better obviously! to be in a career/workplace you enjoy.

Having a child is never a guarantee in life....

But don't panic! I met DS's dad when I was 34 (totally unexpected and wasn,t looking, I was travelling) and had him at 36.

I know someone who had two kids at 42 and 44.

Me and his dad split up. So that is also a question EVERY woman needs to ask herself contemplating kids.

Can I do it on my own? if need be...

I agree also with PP who said new training = meet new people.

All the best. I actually think your thread is speaking for countless other women who are in the same train-of-thought. So thanks for that.