I might have been young at the time (17), but I made the choices I did, and after hearing more from DS1 I'm feeling very proud of the fact that I did get out.
I didn't know until coming on here that strangling was classed as bad as what it is(he did try to strangle me once and had to call an ambulance, but once they had turned up refused to answer the door) and that threatening to kill themselves is part of the script, obviously this all happened 18 years ago but reading some stories on here sounded just like mine, I'm also 99% sure that SS would have been involved if I'd stayed, so I'm feeling pretty proud right about now 
I have a thread in relationships but no idea how to link x