To see the warning signs and not do anything about it?

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Bit of back story - I've depression and a recent diagnosis of pnd, councelling in the works but things have been getting better recently, my life calmer and less chaotic.

Except I sometimes get "high" periods that preceed a major depressive episode. And I'm starting to recognise the signs again this time, becoming more confident/assertive (in a good non aggressive way) more sociable, feeling randomly happy and energetic and just over all good about myself and my life.

It may just be that I'm kidding myself because this time I didn't wake up feeling euphoric but I don't want to do anything about it now, I want to believe that this is just a turning point in my life where the fact that things are going well and I actually feel normal and happy in general is what has brought on this change instead of having a random manic episode and crashing bad afterwards.

Wibu to just wait it out before speaking to my mh team about it? The last time I went on a high episode I felt suicidal after, if it happens again they'll want to put home carers back in place/have me hospitalised (as already agreed and discussed in length).

If the signs got worse and I began to feel out of control I would get in contact with someone, or my dp would contact them for me. But there can't be much harm in waiting and seeing right? Or am I being a fool?

Your MH team can only work with the information you give them. If you talk to them now they might be able to reassure you that how you're feeling is normal, or they may think it needs to be monitored. Leave them in the dark and all you've got are guesses, which I'd have thought would be quite stressful on their own. Good luck

It's pretty tricky because people only tend to present to the doctor during a depressive phase - understandably!

If you're able to recognise warning signs I'd go anyway - can't hurt

Do you already have a diagnosis i.e bipolar II or are you treated with ordinary anti-depressants?

Yes you mention depression but not that particular bipolar syndrome, so the correct diagnosis should offer the correct care.

Since you know the signs you ought to heed them instead of waiting to see. Is there something which can stop the crash from coming?

One of the things I dislike about anti depressants is being unable to feel joyous, but feeling suicidal is worse.

Thanks for the advice :) it's depression brought on by what I've been through in life, nothing as serious as bipolar or clinical depression etc, but I get high periods maybe two or three times a year. The doctor doesn't think it's likely that bipolar though as apart from feeling euphoric and making some pretty stupid decisions and being a bit out of control everything else is relatively normal (if that's the right word?)

I'm not on antidepressants for it as they tend to make me feel suicidal more than they help (I've been on a number of different ones at different dosages of them and none have helped as much as councelling and regular support from my mh team).

It probably is wise to talk to my mh team, I guess I just want to believe it's because the past is finally behind me and I have a good life now, and I'm happy for the first time ever (as strange/soppy as that sounds). Thanks

Nothing can stop me crashing completely if I do get that high way but there's things that can make it less serious, excercise and speaking about things and getting help when I need it work to an extent, I've never known a way to completely stop it though

Talk to your team right now, OP. Unfortunately, my own experience suggests that the feeling of 'this isn't a temporary high, but the beginning of a happy life' is part of the condition, plus you'll be able to be far more coherent about the signs and symptoms before you crash, and will give a better understanding of your patterns.

For what it's worth, I think that recognising a pattern/set of feelings etc in your own moodswings is a good sign. Gaining insight into what is going on with you can only help you manage things.

I've called and booked an appointment for this afternoon, thanks :)