AIBU to feel bf is ruining my life?

[bellarations]

I'm so tired, emotional and irritable.
"My" HV can't help because "she's not in today!".
My ds is 18 months old, I've tried and failed to stop feeding him to sleep for 6 months. He screams the house awake, I have other dc who need to sleep.
I'm lightheaded from exhaustion today, please share your success for giving up. He never feeds during the day it's obvious he feeds for comfort and won't go back to sleep, I've been giving in out of tiredness.

I really feel for you, you must be exhausted. Have you tried any of the BF support helplines (NCT, National Breastfeeding Helpline)? They may have some good practical suggestions and support. Is it possible for your DH to try to settle baby for a few days to get them out of the habit?

You sound totally exhausted, and fair enough. Well done on getting to 18 months, you've done such a lot for your DS.
I'm sure plenty of people on here will have very good advice on ways to help with the sleep issue without stopping breastfeeding, if that's something you'd consider. I personally was fed up by about 13 months and gave up by weaning DS onto bottles of cow's milk, then gradually weaning him off those (or trying to - at 16mo he still has one before bed and one in the night if he wakes screaming for it...). We still had to get up and feed him to sleep once in the night fairly often, BUT it didn't have to be me doing it.
So that might not be very helpful. But I hear you and I know it's hard.