I will try and keep this long story short.
I have moderate depression and am frequently suicidal which I have experienced for the past two months. It seems to be gradually getting worse the more time goes on. I saw one GP who prescribed me Fluoexetine and 'talking therapies'. I self-referred to this and saw a CBT counsellor for 20 mins who decided I was suitable for online CBT only despite my explaining my intention. I then got home and logged into the system to find it advised me to call the Samaritans immediately and go no further with the course.
Soon after this I saw another GP who prescribed me Sertraline and referred me to a CMHT. I have reacted badly to both medications so require something else. The CMHT call me every day to ask me how I am doing that day, and it is a different staff member each day, none of whom I have met. They referred me to a psychiatrist who I saw this morning who was 25 mins late, decided to take a phonecall in the middle of my appt, sent a few text messages whilst I was there in the middle of talking and who is apparently unaware of what further services there are that he could refer me to or what other medications he could prescribe. Each time I expressed my surprise he accused me of being confrontational.
I have basically been told I can do the online computer course, wait 6 months on the NHS CBT waiting list to finally see somebody face to face or I can go private.
Is this really it? AIBU to expect more than this? My poor husband is at the end of his tether and I feel so disappointed with it all as I sought this help and it has come to nothing. I used to work in the NHS and would never provide such a poor service as I have received, although that was in a different population sector rather than generic adult mental health.
Any advice very welcome