Food, food, yummy yummy I love it, I hate it I want it

[Mordirig]

That's it really.
I'm always hungry, always.
I want to eat all the time, my life revolves around food.
My tongue is currently covered in ulcers because of all the salty shite I've shovelled down my gullet the last 24hrs, but my mind keeps wandering and going over all the things I want to eat in the next 24hrs even though my whole mouth hurts.

I love my family but I don't enjoy them all that much.
All I seem to take pleasure in is food, I should be in bed but I stayed up so I could gorge myself of crap without distraction, without an audience.

I wish I could live without food. I wish I never had to allocate a slice of my mind to the thought of preparing, cooking or eating.
But I wonder if I would just replace it with something else, probably.

I'm sorry - I don't know what to suggest but obviously your relationship with food isn't a healthy one. I'm not sure there is a simple answer, but you don't sound very happy about the way you feel about food or indeed your family and that is the real problem. Do you think it might be worth speaking to your GP to see if there is any help available to you which might help you to change the way you feel about food? Or indeed about your relationships with your family?
Good luck and it sounds as though you could do with some .

Is there anything that triggers your eating in this way?

I agree that a visit to the gp may help.

I think it's gone on for so long I don't know what or why I use food like this, if that makes sense?
Loads of little things that add up over the years and I guess food is easy to gain access to.

I honestly want to just live alone on a beach with a dog maybe, read, sleep and walk the dog.
Drink coffee and breath fresh salty air all day.
I always sleep soundly after being at the beach.

My family is lovely, I just haven't got anything left for them.
I count the hours to when they are all asleep so I can be quietly alone, and in those hours I eat, in a way I guess it occupies me so I have a poor excuse not to interact that much.

Do you think you could talk to an addictions counsellor? It's never really about the substance, whether that's food or heroin.

You poor thing. Agree with the posters advocating a trip to your GP. It sounds urgent and you sound desperate; I'm so sorry.

I think you need to get a grip on this for yourself because it doesn't sound as though you are happily in control and enjoying food.

I have been having cognitive behavioural therapy for my issues with food and have lost a lot of weight by getting my head straight about WHAT and WHY I overeat.

I hope you can get some help for yourself, if it helps you this is only a habit (although it feels like you have to do this, you don't). I would try your GP.

Good luck. :)

i hear you my friend...

I have a horrid relationship with food...all the salad and fruit and stuff upsets my stomach something chronic..... i feel bloated, smelly and unhealthy...despite eating fresh fruit and veg. im always hungry

I really want a bag of chips. my tummy doesnt get upset at this, and it quenches my hunger.

Im the size of a house... but i look like a tree.....all weight on my boobs and stomach but my bum looks like its fainted......size 22 on top, can get into size 10 (maternity trousers) size 14 normal trousers.

I feel like a freak
i feel ugly
i hate eating
i hate being cold

im always uncomfortable.

You are not the only one.... if you ever find a cure......share it with me!

you sound depressed and food addicted. you need to get some help OP i wish you all the luck.