To be quiet today

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5 years ago today I watched my mum take her last breath after 2 weeks of being in a hospice. Saturday, I learned that a friend had too lost her battle against cancer.

I am not an overtly emotional person partly due to my up bringing, but that doesn't mean I don't have them, and I sometimes think those close to me - bar a couple - forget that. AIBU not answering texts and phone calls today? That I just have today to myself to mourn?

YANBU at all.

Of course YANBU! Sorry for your loss.

I held my mums hand almost 4 years ago as she fell asleep - I felt honored to be there for her.

People will understand, do what you need to do to get through the day.

I'm sorry for your losses, cancer is so, so horrible, and you're entitled to all the time you need to mourn. People will be understanding.

Thank you both for your kind words.

Today is the only day I allow myself to fully feel the anger I still have over what happen with mum and how many chances there may have been to, if not save, extended her time with us. And now I have another funeral to attend and another person to say goodbye to.

But the thing that has honestly upset me the most, no one (in real life) has asked if I'm OK. I'm sounding a little self indulgent now, I'm sorry.

hope you have had a peaceful day OP, sorry for your loss.