I go through my life being who I am and people pretty much leaving me to be that way. Now and then I have a squabble with my boyfriend or a friend tells me I'm being a bit too negative lately and I go home and do my soul searching and I either change or I don't.
On holiday, however, it always seems that things come to a head. I can't remember having a holiday where I didn't have an emotional overload and burst into tears or get really depressed or have a massive argument over something. It's rotten, I feel that there's something wrong with me and everybody can see it but me and it makes me want to go inside myself and let others be happy and enjoy themselves like they should, but then they want to know what's wrong with me. I say that I'm fine and I smile and change the subject but you can't kid the people closest to you so they worry about you or spend time feeling cross with you because you're ruining the good mood. You try to buoy up for their sakes because you don't want to be the party pooper but you're still feeling hurt and unreasonable and wretched for daring to spoil the mood with your selfish woes...
Just me?