To ask for ideas to try to redirect invasive thoughts?

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I have been on medication for about 6 months to help with the effects of an early menopause, a very beneficial upshot of this med is that it is also an anti-anxiety medication.

I didn't truly realise how much mental energy anxiety and invasive thoughts were taking up until I had them calmed by this medication - the difference has been remarkable.

However, I am out of medication, and while I should be able to get more within a few days, right now, being without is really putting the boots to me.

I slept less than an hour last night. My mind was racing, thoughts of past traumas, worries for the future, financial frets, you name it, it took up residence in my head at one point or another.

I have 2 disabled DCs (they have the same syndrome) but one has significantly higher needs than the other. I am sure you can imagine all of the "fun" thoughts going through my mind about them...

So, the major AIBU here is, am I being unreasonable in looking for coping mechanisms from people who have dealt with these sorts of thoughts, or should I just try and scrounge for money so I can get meds sooner and shut my mind up again?

Important note (so as not to drip feed) - I am not in the UK, and my prescriptions must be paid fully out of pocket all the time.

Are we talking violent intrusive thoughts?

If so, if seriously consider informing your doctor about this.

Suddenly stopping anxiety or depression medication can be very dangerous, please get yourself back on it asap.

No, nothing violent, thank God. More heightened anxieties and the inability to stop the constant self talk chatter in my head.

I saw the shortage coming (too much month for my money with the end of school coming and DH working very short hours) so reduced my dose, first with alternate days, then every 3 days until I ran out.

I have tried to talk to my GP to see if I might be able to get a physician's sample pack to bridge the gap, but she is unable to see me until Tuesday. If all is well, I will have been able to get more by then - but I do know I need to talk to her about ways to prevent this in the future.

In the meantime, I would just like my "turned on full time" brain to go away for a while so I can sleep.

Thank you so much for your concern - violent thoughts and sudden stopping of meds like these can be very serious indeed. You are so right.