To feel sad that I will never excitedly POAS again??

[Writerwannabe83]

Me and DH always said we'd only ever have one child and we are both happy with that decision and have no plans to change our mind in the future.

I have health issues which complicated the pregnancy (I was signed off sick from 10 weeks gestation) and we always said that if we got through one pregnancy with me coming out the other side of it relatively unscathed and we had a healthy baby then we'd count our blessings.

However, I feel sad that I will never excitedly take a pregnancy test again. I absolutely loved peeing on sticks and waiting anxiously for the result, hoping that 2nd line would appear and feeling elated when it did. It was one of the most amazing feelings in the world when I saw that line.

Sometimes I go on the conception boards (to follow other people who were TTC at the same time as means see how they're getting on) and when I see people posting pictures of their positive pregnancy tests it actually makes me feel a bit sad.

I am insane aren't I?!

Noo. I know what you mean. We definitely only wanted 2. After DS2 was born I remember thinking on the last midwife visit-

'A midwife will never visit my house again' That was over 12 years ago now.

You aren't insane, just thinking about stuff. How's your baby?

No! It is exciting, I was so horrified at the thought of having another baby ... but was so upset that I would never be pregnant again if I decided no more kids.

You'll have to live vicariously through others and keep some tests for your friends!

I know how you feel. It makes me sad but we are totally content with what we have. We only ever planned for two and were so fortunate to have two easy pregnancies, one normal and one not so normal delivery and now two beautiful, healthy DC.

Now, I love hearing about friends and relatives expanding their families.

And I never have to worry about the newborn baby phase again!

Not insane at all, I thought that ds would be an only because it was a real struggle to get pregnant with him, everytime he grew out of clothes I would pack them away sobbing :(

There are so many fun times to come!

YANBU.

My last baby is asleep on me. I don't want any more, but I'm very sad I'll never have any more.

I am a contrary cow.

I have 3 DC - and that all I ever wanted.

Only recently - youngest 5 - that I'm not disappointed every month that when my period turns up because I'm not pg. I don't ever want to be pg again - yet every month that twinge of disappointment/sadness.

I have spoken to other mothers in RL - this kind of thing isn't uncommon - different triggers but very common.

Yes, I get this, even though my youngest is six and we're very definitely finished . brokenhearted, what's up?

I know what you mean too. I wanted more than one child, but for various reasons have only ended up having one. He is 6 now, and I think about it less, as I am enjoying the freedom I have now, but up until he was about 4 or 5 I was desperately broody for another. It does get better, or at least it did for me. As you get further from the baby stage, it seems less appealing to go back. I do find I treasure every new stage with DS, because I know I will only experience it once.