Im trying, god im trying. I managed to get til he was 8 months on maternity pay but then I lost my job, I got another but I couldnt afford for it to pay for childcare and for bills and everything so had to leave the job which was gutting to go onto benefits and now im trapped in this circle where I cant find a job that pays enough for the childcare and the bills so I just feel stuck. Ive only been on them a few months but im just panicking. How does everybody else manage on their own? I dont have family to help out with childcare so I can work and because my lo isnt two yet they arent elligible for help with childcare but I really want to be earning again. AIBU to just feel so stuck? Hes not even one yet and I just feel helpless right now to provide for him.