Heard today that a work colleague has been diagnosed with cancer. Not 'treatable but no assurance, lets see how it goes and talk in terms of 5 and 10 yr survival cancer'
This is abdominal 'God knows where it is but we know we can't operate, lets offer you some chemo but don't get excited about it' cancer.
Short of a miracle I doubt we will see her back at work and I suspect she has started on the tedious journey of back and from to the hospital. losing weight, losing energy, losing appetite then the obstructions, the pain and the sickness and then (hopefully) a pain free death at her place of choosing. I know this bloody script too well you see.
All I can think of is the daftest thing. I have a LOT of Boden etc type clothes 
and my colleague liked them. likes the colours and the patterns and always would say to me 'ooh I like your dress, you have such a lot of nice things.' She always made me feel good. She's a lovely person and she doesn't deserve this horror. Nobody does.
So say something to make me laugh - please - because I can't bear it if I keep thinking about this. I will do everything I have to do and say what I need to say but just let me be distracted for a bit please.