Not a straightforward work situation, in voluntary sector ...'bosses' change regularly and are dependent on help/guidance from my colleague and I.
She has her role and I have mine. We work together well. I like her. She is viewed slightly more as a traditional employee, more of a hands on front end role, works more hours. I do admin etc. Guess maybe I am seen less as an employee (but I am one). The 'bosses' forget.
I think also it is because the nature of my job. It means I have a lot of influence on some things - like what we spend and how much she (and others) get paid, bonuses etc ...She is not my manager - but then I'm not hers either....
And eg I don't get an appraisal ...she (and others do)
I'm not doing my job for the money - or the credit - just to stop brain rot really...and also because it was in a bit of a mess and I think it is important to the community to keep it going. I get a nominal amount so when I leave not a massive financial shock - unless they get lucky certain they would need to find more money to pay for a replacement me...
She is very very good at certain aspects of her job - most of it, fantastic in fact...but less good at others....eg certain routine things she is supposed to do she doesn't do them on time etc. She asks me to remind her ...I do and they still don't get done! This makes my life more difficult and I often end up having to double check things/do things for her...it isn't major but becoming a real pain.
I have mentioned it to her and intend to do so again - making it clearer and explain that it really is making more work for me...(I do more than I get paid for anyway - as does she). I also think she doesn't always remember that I am not supposed to do anywhere like the number of hours she does a week - and I get a much lower hourly rate... (and I have lots of other stuff to be doing...)
I also find I have to keep reigning in spending...she knows the situation and why we have to be very careful - but puts me in a position where I am always being negative, the bad guy.
On top of this the 'bosses' keep saying things to me like - isn't she is fantastic. Aren't we lucky to have her? She's great isn't she? etc etc- which is mainly true...definitely true for the group.
But AIBU that I don't want to hear it
- especially when I have this problem with her at the moment? I sometimes want to say - yes for you guys- and the group - but not for me actually ...instead I nod and say yes!
it makes my hackles rise!
Actually, maybe I might just not be feeling valued... (wondering if it is time to move on?)
Or maybe I feel like I can't complain to the 'bosses' about her if the situation doesn't improve...