Yes, my little girl is four in sept. I said no more after a horrific time in 2010 (illness, preeclampsia, then severe pnd etc) however....three years later we thought about it and decided we could get through it. Also all my friends on number two, and like you, missed the groups. I also work nearly ft and I'm sick of it!
Furthermore, we live quite rural and at the weekends she longs for a little one to play with.
If I'm honest, her and my husbands wishes did come first (also I was never ever forced or made to feel pushed into it).i just knew they wanted another one in our family.
We decided to try (we're silly and play what we call Russian Roulette!- we just stop all contraception, relax and simply see where it takes is iyswim)
That was at Christmas and we are expecting in sept 14!
I'm excited but have to be honest and sometimes (privately ask myself if I've done the right thing- that sounds awful doesn't it ?). This is not helped by the fact that old memories are surfacing, I'm dreading the likely preeclampsia the c section , the ward afterwards-yuk!!! But overall I think I'd be gutted if I wasn't pregnant (no pleasing me ;-))
Also, I've been I'll from the start with this one, sickness, headaches, blood pressure (now on lots of tablets), asthma related problems (now inhaler four times a day) both pregnancy related only, like last time! Oh and now infection after infraction (now on antibiotics)
Ok, none of that helps, I'm sure. Bt that's how I feel, both elated and then not at all but I look forward three or four years when hopefully there's the two of them playing together and is never think of the process of pregnancy and birth again.
Btw I'm 37 and husband 43 so reasonably similar to you.
Inbox me if you fancy a chat off here, all the very best xx