Because after 6 weeks sober (or at least to my knowledge sober) he has left work early and gone out tonight and got lashed???
Bit of back story
Had lots of issues with my DP drinking over the last year, always enjoyed a drink but past year it was getting steadily worst!
Back last summer he basically hardly ever went to work and sat in my garden drinking all day when I was working
On holidays he basically drank whole time and would go back to bed for few hours after breakfast then get up at lunch time and start drinking again
Lay on my sofa under a blanket all day hanging on a Saturday/sunday while I either done a 60 mile round trip to pick up his son for day then do nothing with him (I only did this trip for his son, not for him)
On our family hols with kids he sat in caravan drinking whole time while I got up took kids swimming to evening kids entertainment etc (again I done this for the kids so not to spoil there holiday)
Have wine/beer in car to drink when he was feeling hungover/shaky
Those are just a few examples, before Xmas I kicked him out my house and ended it and he promised to change so I gave him another chance! Anyway 5 weeks later I find out I'm pregnant by him, was horrible time he was a total dick, said lots of awful things and wanted me to abort and said if I keep then he wanted nothing to do with baby, anyway I decided to keep and went merrily about me life!
Week later he emails me basically admitting he is a alcoholic and that he has major issues, loves me and wants a relationship and be a father to the baby and has joined AA etc, so prob very stupid of me, hormones etc but I gave him yet another chance and pretty much regretted it since, things have just changed and all the damage he has done/said has turned the relationship sour, I dread him coming here at weekends!
I know I should just end it, but because of the pregnancy and the fact he has been trying I feel bad
Someone kindly kick me up the arse