I am suffering from depression and anxiety, brought on by a number of issues - one being the death of my darling boy 18 months ago at 6 hours old, and not being able to conceive since (i have one living DC who is 5). I've only just been diagnosed, after a series of panic attacks and increasingly obsessive behaviour, and my psychiatrist is very keen for me to start antidepressants, as she feels I will only get worse (and have been doing so in last few weeks, despite counselling). This, she says, would mean a break from TTC for at least 9 months- then possibly wean off the ADs and start TTC again if all well.
The issue is that my infertility is clearly one of the causes of my depression - I have always struggled to conceive - and I'm loathe to take a break. I'm 35 and, while not old, I would rather not take too long about it. However psychiatrist thinks I'm not in the right frame of mind to cope with pregnancy and a baby. I don't think a baby would cure me, but the need to have a baby, particularly after losing one in tragic circumstances, is all-consuming and every day another friend seems to be announcing a pregnancy, which brings me lower and lower.
I am seeing her next week and want to broach the subject of TTC while on ADs and maybe staying on a low-ish dose while pregnant, but I already know she is not really keen.
I know I need the ADs, as I'm finding everything such a struggle and getting more and more panicky and obsessive, but I can't bear the thought of putting off TTC any longer.
Just after thoughts on what the solution might be. Or anyone who has had a healthy baby while taking ADs (or anyone who has had problems doing so- not just after the success stories)