First AIBU so please be gentle!
Background: have a 7wk old DS2 and 4yo DS1. DH is a SAHD and in every other way is fab, does all the housework, cooking, everything. He also looks after DS1 so I can catch up on sleep in the mornings and gets up to him in the night (if he hears him, he's a heavy sleeper so doesn't always).
But this morning he made some sarcastic comment about me BF DS2 lying down in bed down. I had a cloth down but he didn't know that and because we had changed the sheets just the night before said something along the line of "are you trying to get the sheets all messed up before they've even been on one night?".
So this was my response:
For your information, I feed him lying down because he gets less wind, because it's more restful for me, because he goes back to sleep easier afterwards. When it's you who never falls into proper sleep because your brain is biologically wired to stay half awake to listen for your baby stirring, when it's you who physically gets out of bed, trying to remember to turn off the alarm, pick up a wriggly hungry baby and try and get him latched on and feeding before he screams and wakes up you and DS1 because you want them to get as much sleep as possible, you who changes shitty nappies in the dark as quickly and quietly as possible trying not to wake your husband or the baby, because you know if you don't his nappy will leak even though all you want to do is put him in his crib and go to back to sleep and even though this extends the whole process to at least half an hour of you being awake once you have got up fed him changed him possibly fed him again settled him back to sleep and finally got back into bed yourself. When it's you who wakes up in a cold wet sticky bra on cold wet sheets which you then have to sleep on all night, because your pads are full or have slipped and you've leaked everywhere, when you have only had a proper bath or shower TWICE since giving birth and one of those was in hospital, so really a bit of leaked milk starts to not even register since you feel so disgusting gross anyway. When you do ALL THIS 3 - 5 times EVERY NIGHT, and in between that take a 4 year old back to bed, get him a drink, stay with him to settle him, and have to go to the loo yourself at least twice because you have a shit bladder having had two children. When that's YOU, THEN you can make a pissy comment about what fucking position I feed DS2 in at 5 in the morning and no you were NOT joking or trying to be funny, you WERE having a dig.
In my defence, it was about 4 in the morning and I am suffering from PND so am not the best judge of reasonableness atm.
So WIBU? (Suspect I was a bit, and now feel really guilty).