I have 2 DCs who have medical issues and SNs - because of this, I have not been quite as good at taking care of myself as I should be... I never quite found my way onto my own "to do" list.
However, I decided to really make an effort to start taking care of myself last summer. I lost weight, took up running and visits to the gym, saw my GP for a physical, she declared me still a little overweight (which I knew and don't dispute) but otherwise in good health (after a cardiac workup because she was a little concerned about something she heard on exam).
I have been continuing with my physical efforts, but instead of feeling better and better, I have been feeling worse and worse. I finally went back to see the GP this week, and now I apparently tick all the "boxes" for her to be sending me for testing as she feels I might have something insidious going on (specifically endometrial cancer).
Half of me is so tired of being kicked when I am down that I really couldn't care less about this - I didn't even have a chance to talk to my DH about the appointment before he got bad news that will affect the family significantly (he has been laid off, effective this past Wednesday - he got the call at 3pm that day, while sleeping to go in for the night shift), but in the back of my mind there is a little voice trying to remind me that this is something I should be getting worked up about. I have a very strong family history of endometrial cancer, lost an ovary to a tumour when I was 18, have been showing a lot of the "soft" signs as well, which the GP had, until now, attributed to stress (and I wholeheartedly agreed).
My DH is concerned I am in denial, but I figure that I won't start freaking out until they tell me it is time.
AIBU to just go on living my life as normal, since the diagnosis hasn't actually been made, just suggested, or is DH correct, that we need to start working together and making plans for care of the DCs while I am in hospital, as I am going to need surgery regardless?