Rather, Wibu to have another glass of wine? and drown my sorrows.

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I'm supposed to be cutting down. Developed too much of a habit for my OWN liking, let alone almost teetotal DH's.

I've had a bottle. I am considering opening a second. I will almost certainly have to make the decision to have my very old horse pts in the next few days.

I know wine won't make my extreme sadness go away.

Bloody hell i shouldn't have posted on here. Feeling very emptional.

I would say, you have drunk too much atm, stop now and talk again tomorrow.

Sorry about your horse. No judgement here.

Oh I'm so sorry notalotta

My DPony is in her twenties and although thankfully it doesn't seem to be a decision I'll need to make soon it is one that I dread.

While I'm usually the first to say have more wine in this case I'd probably say a cup of tea then bed.

I hope you manage to make peace with whatever decision you make. It's hard but we owe it to our four legged friends to say goodbye before things drag on for too long.

T

Ordinarily I'd say fuck it, get stuck in; but if you're already feeling that you're drinking too much I'd say stop now, have some water or a cup of tea, and go to bed. You'll only regret it if you drink more now. I'm so sorry about your horse.

Another one who came on planning to say go on, but sounds like things are a bit tough at the moment.
Have a tea and curl up. You'll thank yourself when you wake up tomorrow.
I am very sorry about your horse.x

Is there a compromise? Not open a whole new bottle but a can of something or a short? Sorry about your horse.

Sorry phone went a bit odd.

Talk to who mammaj? I'm not talking about it really. Just feeling sad.

stars hes 32. So has had a 'good innings' by all accounts, particularly given his working life - retired from polo at 18 when i bought him. The age though doesn't make it any easier.

Thank you all. Its so hard. It feels like no one understands, but it seems that strangers on the internet do. I felt so awful leaving him tonight. DH is being very supportive but i can't talk without sobbing.

I think because in my mind i have made the decision. Just need to go ahead with it now.

No, I'm sure it doesn't.

I remember how devastated I was when my DM called me at uni to say my cat was ill.I sobbed because I knew she wouldn't come back from the vets and she had also a a "good innings"

I know it will be 100 times worse when it is my pony 1) because she is my pony and 2) because it will be me who is responsible for making that decision.

I'm lucky enough to still be able to ride her and am at the stage now where I laugh when she misbehaves instead of getting annoyed as I'm jut happy she is enjoying herself.

If he has made it to 32 after being retired at 18 from polo then it sounds like you have been incredibly good to him.

It's good your DH is supportive.

Talk on here if it helps

Thank you stars i also loved the fact that the old boy would gallop about the fields, and still bounce along in canter (really slowly, when he should have been walking gently, to ease his stiffness) he has been my horse of a lifetime. I love him so much. Yes, i have two others, pony at 26 and the 'young' (13) one that i ride. As you say, the resposibility ismine. Its his legs that are the problem. Losing control of his hind legs. Was v.bad (totally unexpectadly) for a day ok for a week, bad for two days, ok for a week, very bad again this eveing. Seems he is not inpain, but is very confused and so used to cantering about. So sad to see him struggle.

Sorry, i totally realise this was the wrong place to post.

It's not the wrong place at all.

If he is confused then you are probably right that the time has come.

You would hate yourself (projecting- I know I would) if you did nothing and he got hurt when no one was around.

What a horrible time for you x

Thanks stars He doesn't uderstand why his body won't work properly. If he would only go slow it would help, but itsnot in his hot headed nature. He has been standing still today, pawing, then obviosly thinking 'fuck it, I'm going' and then not being able to. Worst fear, he lays down for a roll and can't get up. Dh is supportive but don't think he gets how serious it is. Thanks you for talking. I know what i would be advising someone else if it were them. Just so hard when its your own.

It's always easier to advise someone else than to be going through it yourself.

I have been questioning myself recently about whether I'm doing my best for my pony as I've not been riding much since having DS.

I hope you take this in the right way and it doesn't upset you but you have made me realise how lucky I am that I can still have fun with her and I'll be thinking of you tomorrow when we have a canter.

I do know how lucky I am really but sometimes it's too easy to let children, work etc get in the way and to think "I'll ride tomorrow" or "next weekend".

Tomorrows aren't endless though and I'll be trying to make the most of the ones we have left while she is for enough to ride.

Be kind to yourself and try to think of the good times you have had together.

YANBU to be gutted about your horse( you wrote so beautifully about him, I could see his bouncy canter!

YABU to think booze ever makes a sad situation anything but worse and harder to deal with added to which you will feel low and like shit tomorrow.

Stop now and make tea or go UK bed with water.

And aspirin.

Hope tomorrow not too grim.

I am allergic to horses, but do love them. I assumed you had friends who would understand, sorry if that is not the case.

My beloved dog is nearly 13, so I have started to think about the end of her life and it makes me so very sad. She appears well atm, so I am making the most of her while I still have her.

Sorry to hear that OP, YANBU at all.

I'm so very sorry about your horse. It sounds like he has had a good life with you.

OP just adding my support and sympathy as a fellow horse owner. I've had two PTS when they'd broken legs and there was no choice. But I also had my golden oldie PTS when my husband was terminally ill and I couldn't give her the care she needed plus nurse DH and look after my two very young DCs.
I can honestly say that the time between making the decision and having it done was the hardest.
But we made it almost a celebration of her glory days. My friend groomed her 'til she shone, plaited her up and oiled her feet. The licenced slaughterman was a personal friend, and was whipper-in for a hunt. As I led her out of her stable he blew on his hunting horn, her ears pricked and eyes shone and she bounded onto his lorry and went to the hunting field that's over the Rainbow Bridge.
And afterwards we toasted her with champagne and Quality Street.
OP you will have beautiful memories of your horse to treasure forever, and I don't think that anyone who has not been privelaged to share life with a horse can ever truly understand x