To understand how it feels to feel shit about Christmas

[Gossipmonster]

Normally love Christmas even as a single parent always had other family to spend it with - have never been the only adult with my DC.

This yr OH is away working (we won't be able to speak) all family gone abroad and I didn't go as thought OH would be home.

Arranged Xmas day with mate who has now let me down at the 11th hour with lame excuse.

It will all be down to me and while I love my DC massively and will pull out all the stops to make sure they have a great day, I can't have a drink with them and it is not their job to support or make it fun or special for me.

First time in my life I just want to bury my head somewhere and wish Xmas would just be over already as I am sick of hearing carols, about family get together and about family being together.

I guess I am lucky I have never felt like this at Xmas before and makes me feel like adopting all the lonely people every Christmas.

Is it just me or are there other Christmas dreaders out there?

I'm not celebrating it this year. Feels a bit weird but I'm just praying for it to be over and 2014 to hurry up

I understand. Christmas is so hard for some of us.
Both my parents died this year.

I have two young dc though and it's all about them.
I am looking forward to the excitement Santa brings but it will be a lonely day without two very important people.

I think that's it it's lonely as the onus is all on you.

I find the people who don't get it are the ones who have never done it.

I would consider volunteering but my job involves supporting a lot of people with emotional issues and it would be nice to have a day off doing that!