To ask for help with my midlife crisis?

[bordellosboheme]

I am 36 and have one gorgeous ds who is 2, a part time job (in education) which is quite good and live with dp who is 47. I would like one or two more dc. However my post is about an emerging mud life crisis feeling which is hard to put into words. Has anyone female experienced a mix life crisi and how did you manage it without hurting anyone? This sounds like a joke, but it's not!

Ooh I like the sound of the musicals thread - where's that?!

I like this thread! Love the things that everyone's doing to get out of it - looking at you cuntybunty!
I've started practising mindfulness and meditation and finding its powerful and life-changing.
Look up the "what mediation really is" website if you're drawn to this.

Ooh ladies can I join you... I'm just ( I hope) coming out the other side or sort of because where there's life there's hope yeh? .. Been through ...' Ohmergerd what have I been doing with my life, shouldn't I be head of heads of department by now, living in a mansion with an M&S Christmas advert twinkly Christmas about to occur and who's this old bloke I'm hanging with with wiry eyebrows and nasal hair OhMerGerd!!!!' And now I'm kind of sitting at ... ' ah well I've got a daughter who's as old as I was when I had her and I've held down a full time job/career, teeny tiny house will be easy to heat/maintain when I'm decrepit and the old b

Bloke ain't so bad .. I can buy him some trimmers for Christmas' .
And I might win the lottery and pay to go to one of those weightloss bootcamps in California where I will also take up writing the novel that i started before dd1 ...But them again I might not and just wait to be a granny with grandad sitting beside me trimming his facial hair... :)

I don't know whether it is partly an age thing or partly a motherhood thing but I am just SO done with big city living. I am craving a move nearer hills with a real soul hunger - I want to put down roots somewhere I LOVE and I get so upset at having up go back I end up crying every time.

Have a really strong sense that time is passing and you don't get it back again. I feel trapped right now, but I think it could be a real opportunity to find a life that fits who I am now - not nec a negative thing at all.

But sadly, DH doesn't feel the same way. I have really changed and want different things now, but he hasn't.We have been having the same going round in.circles talks about this for the past three years and can't find a viable compromise. It's driving me crazy!