To be so sick of constant worrying

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and wish I just could not give a flying fuck about anything.

I am feeling so sick of myself right now. I'm sick of constantly worrying about everything and everyone. I worry about my children. If they're happy, if I'm doing everything right, if they're developing at the right rate. My Ds is 4 and shy and quiet and so so sensitive. He has started p1 this sept and I worry about him settling in constantly. I'm even worrying that he's not getting the whole learning to read business even though he's only 2 weeks into reading books.

I worry about my family. I worry about what people think of me. I worry that I might say something to offend someone.

Oh I am so tired and just want to jot give a damn but I just can't

By the way op I'm not sure if you like a glass of wine at night but cutting back on booze as much as possible massively helps anxiety!

If I have a big night out now I get heart palpitations the day after and have terrible anxiety for about 4 days, even if I have one glass of wine at home I will worry more the day after and feel edgy

It's deffo something worth thinking about if you like a tipple

I don't drink at all except a baileys on Christmas Eve.

Here's my worry for the day. Yesterday my 2 year old dd came walking into the living room wearing nothing but a furry hat and a handbag pronouncing look at meeeee! It was hilarious and I had a good laugh. A wee while later ds came walking in with a cloak over his head and I said to dd oh look a ghost. Ds started crying 'how come you laughed so hard at dd and not at me' It broke me heart that I upset him and I couldn't stop thinking about it today. I did send him out to come in and do it again and gave him a great big laugh but I still feel I let him down.

Anxiety is a terrible condition and it needs to be treated.
You really should see the GP and discuss options - of which there are many.

There are some very good books on how to cope with anxiety and worry. Ask your library about Books On Prescription scheme

Medication helps too - Propranalol is a beta blocker and has worked brilliantly for me.
Good luck.