To wish I could be brave enough to get help

[Abrahamlincolnsghost]

I am ill. Have ulcerative colitis and am on steroids and lots of other medication. I have been off work for weeks. Dh and I have our own business and 4 dc.

Currently I spend most of the day in bed, get up in time for afternoon school runs and do just what I can get away with. Washing dishes, uniforms, home works etc. I can't sleep as the steroids have messed up my sleep patterns.

I really need a cleaner, ironer, home help and Christmas shopper but I just don't have the energy or confidence to do anything to help myself. Each night I go to bed thinking tomorrow will be the day I start to get back on track but then I can't sleep and the next day I can't think clearly.

Dh is sorting the business and essentials for kids but how do I get out of this? I am quite together normally and really hate the thought of admitting "I can't cope!"

Just ranting really, please be naice. Lol.

I'm up, and can't sleep.

Go back to your gp, you do sound depressed to me.

Do you have any family support at all? Someone who can help?

Try online shopping for Xmas presents, a lot easier and less hassle. If you're MNetting, you can Xmas shop ;)

Hope you feel better soon

Hi I am sorry to hear you are unwell. I'm not a medical person, but I'm just wondering if your meds need adjusting to ensure you are on the best combination / dosage for you please ignore this is it is not a helpful suggestion

Just a few suggestions below, I hope they will help.

Could you call an agency cleaner and book them to come round to clean? I've never used them but friends have and apparently a team can come round, so a lot of cleaning is done in a short time.

Regarding ironing as a short term solution - not sure whether this is available in your area, but our local dry cleaner picks up and drops off cleaning and ironing. This would only need a telephone call.

With Christmas presents, how about buying from somewhere like JL? Not sure what area you are in, but they do deliver practically everywhere.

You're not well! You need all your energy to recuperate from this bout (am I right in remembering that UC has periods of flare-ups and then remission?)

A cleaner should be easy to find, and they could do the ironing too. Christmas shopping - you could do much of that from your bed, god knows I do and I'm not even ill.

Hope you're better soon. Don't give yourself a hard time, it's the last thing you need.

I have a cleaner who irons. She will also change the beds. Found her online. She's brilliant. I have no health issues. Get a cleaner!