I feel like a stupid teenager.
6 years ago, whilst living in Spain, I met an american man, and fell for him hard, quickly. It was great while he was there, but then he had to move back to the Staes and although at first we tried, it kind of fizzled out, which was the source of a lot of pain for me at the time. He also said he was hurt about it at the time, but it seemed inevitable as neither of us would even contemplate moving to the other country at that point.
Fast forward to now. I´m a single mum of a little boy (not his!) and have moved back to the UK. He has kept in touch here and there over the years, and all of a sudden last month he tells me is he is in london for work at the end of October and would like to come and visit me. (I´m up north). I say fine, thinking it´ll just be a nice thing to see him, but as an old friend.
He comes over, and for 4 days acts like a boyfriend, really. Very sweet, affectionate, fixes some things around my house, really kind to my son, much hugging, hand holding, and we slept together. He then has to go back to the States, and leaves. We are keeping in touch via text at the moment, and he has sent me a video of him and his mum saying hello, come visit us etc.
He has a very demanding job, and is currently working long hours, and perhaps as a result of this, the contact is not that regular, although I have had a one liner text and sometimes a little more every day.
I don´t want to get hurt again. But I feel something for him all over again. Am I being unreasonable to think that this has any chance of going somewhere? Opinions may have changed re potential of moving, incidentally. I´m just feeling very confused at the moment, and that doesn´t feel good.