To just want to smoke until I become the smokiest thing ever!

[IfYouLoveSomebodyLetThemSleep]

Got a BFP on Monday! Brilliant news but I am soooooo missing smoking and drinking :( I didn't even do it that much, about 3 tabs a day and occasionally a couple of glasses of wine, but now that I can't it's all I want.

DP is still smoking and that's not helping at all.

I just want to puff puff puff puff puff puff puff puff!

Any tips for getting past this? I've got at least another year and a half left of no smoke or drink, feels like forever.

Oh Shelly :(
All of that was so brave of you to say, I know it's an anonymous Internet forum but it still must have even been tough to write it down.

You really have put it in to perspective. My silly cravings for it sound so stupid now. I wouldn't have taken it back up while PG anyway, I'm too much of a worrier as it is.

I am so sorry about your losses, and thank you for being so honest

I stopped as soon as I got a positive, made me feel sick so it was easy.

However I remember being 8 days late with my eldest and gasping, going insane wanting a puff. I tore the house apart looking for an abandoned cig. I eventually found one in the bottom of an old bag. I felt so wrong that I hid under the breakfast bar, even though there was no one in I was worried about someone seeing me. I lit it up, gagged, out it out after half a drag then spent 5 minutes trying to get back off the floor.

Your dp needs to stop. We did it together when we started ttc. Previously we had both tried at different times but couldn't stick to it because the other was still smoking. You have morning sickness, leaky tits, constipation not to mention childbirth to deal with. The least he can do is give up the fags.
Seriously- in your position, I would end up seriously resenting him if he kept going.