To be scared about tomorrow?

[StupidMistakes]

Two weeks ago I was hit by a car, still I cant remember the accident, two days later the hospital decided after seeing specialists that my ankle wouldn't heal on its own and I agreed to the operation to put a metal plate and pins in my leg. I haven't seen my leg since the accident.

I am scared now whether its healing properly and also worried about yet another scar and how long its going to take to be walking normally again.

I know I am lucky I am live, I was unconscious for an hour and how long it takes to heal and what scar it leaves is irrelevant really, but I am scared that I am going to look down and see the scar and be reminded of what happened, I cant remember the accident, I suffered amnesia, but I remember the afterwards and it wasn't pleasant at all. I just want to go back to being normal but I am expecting them to tell me its not healing properly for some reason, probably me being stupid. I have an appointment tomorrow at the hospital at 10.30. I already have scars so don't know why this one seems worse than the others xxx

Oh, sounds awful. I hope it goes ok for you tomorrow. Do you have someone who can go with you for some hand-holding? Maybe plan something nice to do afterwards so you have something to look forward to and take your mind off it a bit.

Can you talk to a Dr about the emotional side of things? They may be able to offer some kind of counselling.

Will be thinking of you Stupid Hope it goes as well as possible

Yes, you are lucky to be alive but what you are going through sounds really stressful and I don't blame you for feeling nervous. Are you well supported with family/friends?

Oh you poor thing. I had a similar accident and op and my scars don't really register a few years on, they are there but are flat and not even a bit red.

You're probably focusing on the scars as you are still in shock. For me it took a long time to stop being horrified I was 'broken' but it does go as time passes.

Holding your hand

Scars take a long time to heal, sometimes longer than you do emotionally. I was stabbed when I was a lot younger and I still have the scar, for years I was embarrassed about it and would cover it up at all times, I would avoid the sun because any form of tan just made it look even worse. It's taken over 15 years and it's still there, but I've finally accepted it's part of who I am, it takes time but it does get better.